Im Back!

So I’ve been pretty out of touch with wordpress lately because of the internet problem but cheryl has very kindly agreed to lend me her usb till i get back my internet. and i use the word ‘wordpress’ alone because nothing can keep me and my korean stuff apart! i spent every minute i have in the library reading omona and watching ‘take care of the young lady’, its really nice, im addicted. have been reading about the recent jaebum issue, i feel so sad for him and the 2pm boys ):

sorry too lazy to resize, just make do!

photos from vintage shopping at lawley with hannah, grocery shopping with eu dee and making curry, the crazy tornadoish wind last week and cheryl and i cooked lunch on tuesday (:

College?

Cheryl and I are thinking of moving into college next semester! Kristie made it sound like so much fun, all the parties and events, making new friends and free tutorials! But I dont know how am I going to give up the comfort of having my own toilet and my own space (kinda!) Im like painting my nails in my knickers and jumper but I’ll never be able to do that in college with all the people walking in and out. Imagine having to wake up at 8 in the morning, looking like hell, walking to the toilet with lopsided specs, dried up drool at the corner of my mouth and with hair looking like a tornado just hit me. Okay, im exaggerating here but you get my point! I look almost like Im from outerspace when I wake up in the morning! And oh how I would hate having to carry my toiletries in and out all the time! And I wont be able to sing in the bathroom anymore! >:

But just think of all the themed parties, they recently had a murderer one and some mafia one, and friends from all over the globe! Plus staying in college means unlimited internet (i think)!

I dont know, at least I still have some time to think about it. And submitting an application doesnt guarantee me a place, i still have to go through an interview!! Till then, I’d be enjoying the last of me having a house to myself!

Oh and I AM ALMOST OUT OF INTERNET THIS MONTH )): NEXT MONTH WONT START TILL THE 24TH OF SEPT, HOW HORRID!! i finish 7gb in one week just watching hot blood, easy fortune happy life, dream, mnet scandal and wildbunny. tsk me >:  that explains the lack of photos because uloading means using up my internet!

And school’s out for a week, i didnt say hi to dreadlocks in lecture on wednesday I AM SO UPSET WITH MYSELF!Been awhile since I felt butterflies in my tummy!! mmmm

ngor hou xiong lei

Now everytime I see an old person, I think of you, grandpa. I wish so hard sometimes, that the old man would turn around and it’ll be you. And then it hits me that it will never ever be possible. And I think of you and how I’ll never ever get to see you again, and it kills me a little inside. A part of me has gone with you. And I think of how lucky that granddaughter is, to have her grandfather still with her. To be able to feel his wrinkly hands, topographed with veins, to be able to look into his eyes and hear his voice, to see his face crinkle up when he laughs. I am happy for you ah gong, I know wherever you are, you’re happy. I just miss you so much and wish I could have bought you one last chinese newspaper, one last 7-up, one last durian potong ice cream. Simple things like these could earn me a smile from you, but I’ll never see it again. Simple things like these could make you so happy, you’re such a sweetheart. It kills me to know that my children will never get to know a great man like you, would never be able to be loved the way you loved me, the way you spoilt me and bought me as many mechanical pencils as I want. Kills me to know that you will not be at my wedding, that we’re now one person short.But I am so glad you know that I am in University, even though you wont get to see me complete it. And I am so glad you were one of my first passengers when I passed my driving. I love you and i am eternally grateful and i cant wait to see you again. Till then, i’ll be missing you.

Dear Grandpa

I feel almost angry with myself for not feeling immense sadness, is it because I am so detached from home or because it hasnt exactly hit me yet. The one scene that keeps replaying in my mind is the one where my ah gong helped me finish my chinese homework, which required a portrait of my grandma, which he drew so beautifully. You could really see the amount of effort in every line he drew. And how he used to wait for me after Kinderland, the jokes he cracked at the dinner table, the crooked smile with the wink he did so well. He was the kindest and most generous man I knew, and even though my feelings are a little jumbled, one thing’s for sure and that is how much I love this chuckly old fella.

Random

Q26 The girl that made you fall in love: …I have never fallen in love
Q27 A habit of girls you don’t understand: why do girls like to put their hands near their mouth when they’re gonna take a picture keke

ChansungBB why so cute?

“But his love to his family member is extremely deep. When his brother who was studying in Americas decided to dropped off from his university due to lacking of school fees, Hyun Joong told his brother: “Brother, please read this book.” and gave him a novel as present.

When his brother opened up the book to read, he found a 300 millions won (approximately USD237,000) cheque hidden in the book. His brother gave his father a rang mentioned that no matter how he counted he couldn’t believe the cheque amount. It was beyond our imagination that while being a trainee singer, he could still carefully saved so much money. Ever since he enrolled into the university (Kyonggi University Digital Music faculty), we had never worried about him.”

HyunJoong is unbelievable!!!

Quack Quack Quack

This morning while walking to school, I saw that the duck that frequents/lives in our school ‘lake’ has new ducklings!! 9 of them!! How adorable! I went all cooey and I wanted to lay duckling eggs myself, they were so fluffy! Daddy duck was really defensive though, i wanted to get closer and he took one protective step forward and went, ‘QUACK’.

woooaah, i get your point, donald.

finally handed in my essay, i know God is watching this one for me. He watches over every one im sure, but this one in particular!!

BURNNN!

I am so angry with my ex-friend, I cant think. This is a horrible week, but it is a test of my faith. And I must not give in to the horrid thoughts and feelings!! Its been such a long time since I’ve felt such fury, my fingers are shaking and Im crying because I AM SO MAD. My ex-friend tells me in week 1 that there wont be any exams for philosophy. I just found out that there are and I asked, ‘Eh which idiot say no exams for phil? Have you know!!’ and ex-friend says,’ HAHAHA ME LA, why? you scared ah? why you sooo scared? so now you want to kill me ah?’ and im like when did u find out, and he said a couple of weeks ago which is hell long!!! i havent been attending lectures or paying attention in tutorials because for philosophy, apparently, we only have two assignments/essays due. So i was thinking, i just have to concentrate on those two essay topics in class/lectures and i’ll be fine. Every week after class, I’ll be like thank God there is no exam for phil if not i’d just die because i dont understand anything and he doesnt ever utter a single thing, not even a couple of weeks ago when he found out. NICE.

I know it is my fault for not finding out myself and not paying attention or trusting that idiot/SOAB but STILLLLLL I HAVE NEVER MET SUCH AN IDIOT HE IS THE EPITOME OF ASSHOLE, V IS FOR VEEJAYJAY AND VASECTOMY AND VENERABLE DISEASE!!!! H8 CHUU MEAN EVIL PERSON!!!!

and this is not the only time he has been mean, all this while ive been tolerating his horrible attitude, he says things like pizza is disgusting, cant let it go down my system when im eating one, or the bible is crap/doesnt make sense, or why u wear grey top and grey tights, you look damn weird your outfit doesnt match at all or why you so stupid one or eh you know how to play tennis anot when he doesnt even know how to serve, or eh can you run to the ball anot when he hits it out of the court

he hates his mom and his brother and he always complains about them and whines about how he hates them all because their attitude sucks but he has a problem himself. God bless his soul and my angry one. God please let me finish my essay tonight without anymore disruptions.

YAY GOD IS AWESOME

MY SOUND IS BACK!!!!!

I didnt have to download that stupid audio driver or anything. I switched off my laptop last night and went to bed, still without sound. And now the sound is back!!!!! Without me doing anything to it! GOD IS SO GOOD TO ME <:

AND  NOW I CAN WATCH THE HJ ANYCALL VIDEO!!! WITH SOUND! hehe philo essay, you might have to wait a minute, maybe five.

chanbear <3

The rainbow I saw on my way home, another full one, for some reason it was brighter at the end. I was walking closer (in a way) to it to get a better picture and when i got there (in a way), the rainbow had vanished.

By hook or by crook, I MUST GET MY ESSAY DONE BY TONIGHT.

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Now Im here and I have no idea what to click next, guess I have to live without sound for the rest of my life